An Attempt

You know you've been a fool all this time, trying to impress that ONE GIRL, yet never really living up to her standards. Though you know you have no chance, you're still there in the background, supporting her and doing stuff for her that you wouldn't even do for your own girl. Yes, you do have one, just in case you forgot.

Despite this fact though, you just can't shake the feeling that you have for this ONE GIRL. You feel it is your duty that she experiences happiness, enjoys life, become successful and moreover, find love. You have silently vowed that you will become her own personal knight, always there to protect her, always there to offer your everything, always there to make her feel she's special.

You never really ask for anything in return, just seeing her smiling gives you renewed strength to continue what you do. You know you're efforts are futile, you know that ONE GIRL would never realize your worth, but you know as well that you're never gonna get tired.

Just hold on there, stick it out to the end, my friend. Though that ONE GIRL will never see you the way you are, it doesn't really matter, as long as you are happy with what you do and out of it you make another person happy.

This is an attempt at writing for a very special friend. Hang in there man, I'm sure there will be better things to come your way.

A Little Frustration

It's one of those nights when I badly want to write something, but nothing comes out of my head. Do you ever feel like this sometimes? I mean, when you're just lying in bed and not thinking much about writing anything, all sorts of ideas just pop out of your mind. But when you pick up your pen or laptop or anything where you can put those ideas into words, they just disappear without a trace. That's what I have been feeling these past few months. Since the start of the semester, I have never done anything to exercise my writing, and I feel that because of this, my talent is slowly slipping away. That's why I seriously need to practice and practice more, or else this God-given talent would just fade away without me putting it to good use. The question is, can I do it?

Today...

1 pm.

1 o'clock this afternoon.

Our defense starts.

Though we've prepared for it already, I'm still really worried. This is the first time I am feeling pressure from speaking in front of other people. I'm usually calm and composed but this defense for our Major subject is really giving me a lot of stress.

Okay, okay. So I'm being overly SERIOUS here but I mean, this is my future I'm talking about. If I don't pass this subject it's gonna be like another semester of tiresome stress. That's why I seriously have to do good this afternoon. Or rather, me and my group mates should do good this afternoon.

2 More Days...

Come Tuesday, we will have our defense for our System Analysis an Design subject, and it really rattles me out of my nerves just even thinking about it. We've been up to our necks preparing everything from the documentation to our actual running application just for a two-hour presentation to a panel composed of our Dean and 2 instructors from the college. I feel it's going to be an interesting week, I just hope we don't get too caught up in our fears so that we won't choke during the defense.

Sleep

That is what I totally need right now, SLEEP! I have been awake since 8:30 am yesterday so in other words, I have been awake for almost 24 hours. I know it's not a very healthy practice, especially for someone like me who's eyes are like, already "broken". I just wish I can rest coz' any more of this and I'm sure my head will be spinning like crazy.

I really hope we can finish everything soon.

Trouble Breathing

As I am writing this entry, I am also having a problem breathing. It's not with the cold I have, because there seem to be nothing wrong with my nostrils now, but I can't seem to figure out what is causing this. Maybe it's because of all the stress I have been feeling lately, or maybe it's because of all the pressure from our System Analysis and Design subject, who knows? I just wish I wont get sick by next week and the week after that. I seriously need to be alive and kicking by then.

Half A Breath

I'm breathing using one nostril now. This damn cold is really getting to my nerves. I haven't been able to work on my project because this effin' left nostril is driving me insane. How do I cure myself from this really annoying affliction?

A Year Already?

My blog has already reached one year without me noticing it. That's how preoccupied I was with the other stuff that complicate my already complicated, less than ordinary life.

I wasn't really aware about it until I noticed my archive. I realized then that it had been a year since I started this whole blogging thing. For the most part, I am not pleased with how my blog has progressed. I feel like the last year just went and gone in a breeze with me having nothing much to say about it. But at least, I am still thankful that this blog has reached its first year without me ever thinking of discontinuing it or deleting it completely. I wish I can still last one more year or two. I'll try to update once in a while from now on, no more long intervals. (I hope I can do it)

Amidst All The Hustle And Bustle

I have been working on a project for our System Analysis and Design subject for quite some time now, and I find it really fun. But although I enjoy doing the coding for the project, sometimes I just want to escape from it all and find a place where I can rest and renew my energy. Thus, I came back here, to my scribble pad, where I can enjoy the freedom of expressing myself and relieve myself of all the stress brought about by the hustle and bustle of my less than ordinary life. I know, I know, I have been living against my motto of a "LIFE LESS SERIOUS" but, it does kinda pay off sometimes. Well, gotta run now, my stomach is grumbling and my order of a well-cooked pork soup is already here. Yum, yum!

Blog Hopping

I was visiting my friend's blog when I happened to read this article. I know it's kinda old but hey, i find it really cool, not to mention funny.


"Some Reasons why you should Date a Computer Major"
by: Syarief

1. I.T. industry was never affected in the global crisis.

2. You know they’ll be up all night long.

3. They take virus protection seriously.

4.They’re just like a network, they often go down on you.

5. They don’t BYTE (but they do NIBBLE a little)

6. They may just live up to their homepage.

7. If it doesn’t work out, you can always DUMP them.

8. They can turn off interrupts for private moments.

9. There’s never a NULL moment.

10. They can always reload and restart

11. They are very good and fast with their fingers.

12. They are experts with the insert button.

13. They know how to FETCH and EXECUTE when requested.

14. They can push all the right buttons.

15. They can be the next Bill Gates…..hehehe

In Awe...

I'm currently watching the videos of the 2009 UAAP Cheerdance competition, and I must say that they are really (seriously, REALLY) good. Just watching their tosses and tumblings make me wanna head up to the gym and practice. I just hope we can still keep the crown this Buglasan Cheerdance Competition, I really really want to win one more time.

Seriously

I was contemplating on whether I should post something or not. It's been a while since I last did this, and I'm starting to feel a little hesitation on sharing my thoughts to the world.

A Curious Case of the Blues

It's one of those days when I find it very hard(almost impossible) to sleep. Something has occured which forced me to rethink my views on certain things in my life, especially those concerning my so-called lovelife. I realize that complications do arise when one has not been really honest. I do not understand why people have to be judgemental, insulting and hardheaded, disregarding all sense of logic just to satisfy their really pathetic thoughts. I've been keeping all my feelings inside of me, and I feel if I do not let it out soon, I would burst. That is why I came back here to my scribble pad, to scribble thoughts, release kept up feelings, and enjoy the freedom of expressing myself without someone ever judging or insulting me. I have been good, I have not done anything that might offend or harm, I have repected and loved, but why doesn't anyone believe this? Why am I being judged for something that I did not do? Does it all have to end like this?

These are just some of the questions running through my mind right now.

Heartbreak

It has been a while since I last made a post, and I'm feeling a little guilty because it had to take looking at other's blog to encourage me to revive mine.

A lot has happened since I last wrote scribbles on my scribble pad, things both happy yet surreal. Things that would basically go against the message that my blog is trying to convey, a "LIFE, LESS SERIOUS". Perhaps it is natural for a person to suffer pains and heartaches once in a while, and perhaps it is only natural for a person to have different ways of reacting to such sufferings.

After A LONG Silence

Finally, I had the time (and the energy) to blog. A lot has happened since my last post. The major highlight of which was that I had a job. It didn't last that long though, because of the dreaded chicken pox virus. It left me with devastating scars all over my already scarred body. No complains though. Hehe.

Hey! This is kinda fun!

Making single-line entries are kinda cool. It's like I'm writing at facebook or something.

Resurrection

I need to REVIVE my plurk!

Blank!

This is what would probably best describe what I am thinking!


BLANK!

Brain Drain?

Can't concentrate! Too much is flowing through my head I feel I will burst!


Haha! The hell with this tomfoolery!

Conversations With My Alter-ego

carelessoul: "Hey Neel, how are you doing?"

Neel: "Crappy!"

carelessoul: "Why is that?"

Neel: "So much has happened in the past months, but most of them only brought sadness."

carelessoul: "Care to share those stuff?"

Neel: "Nah! It would make things more complicated."

carelessoull: "What's it about anyway?"

Neel: "Ruined friendships, unreciprocated love, school boredom, and how my life freakin' sucks."

carelessoul: "I see, but those are just normal for an average college dude,  well at least I think they are."

Neel: "I agree. But sometimes they can just be so frustrating."

carelessoul: "So do you plan to do anything about it?"

Neel: "Maybe, I don't really know."

carelessoul: "Before you do anything, think of the consequences of your actions first."

Neel: "I suppose..."

carelessoul: "Isn't this conversation creepy?"

Neel: "Definitely!"

carelessoul: "People will probably start to think that we're crazy or something."

Neel: "Yeah!"

carelessoul: "But it's kinda fun though."

Neel: "Well, I guess..."

carelessoul: "What's on your mind now?"

Neel: "Classes this afternoon..."

carelessoul: "What's wrong with having classes this afternoon?"

Neel: "Nothing... "

carelessoul: "..."

Neel: "Seriously! I'm just being paranoid as usual."

carelessoul: "You can't fool me you know."

Neel: "Of course I know! You're me, I'm you!"

carelessoul: "Good! So you can't deny the fact that what's bothering you about having classes is... "

Neel: "Yeah I know! I know!"

carelessoul: "Haha! Gotcha!"

Neel: "Whatever! I'm gonna end this conversation now."

carelessoul: "Hey wait! You ca-- "

Neel: "See yah later alter-ego."