Saturday, July 31

Useless

Have you ever felt that some time in your lives? When it comes to the point that you ask yourself, "Why can't I be worth something to someone?". Well that's what I'm feeling as of the moment, useless, worthless, and a complete failure as a boyfriend.

My girlfriend and I have been together for almost 15 months now, and we've had our fair share of trials and hardships as a couple. Throughout those 15 months, we've developed a loving and wonderful relationship, but what I don't get is why she never reveals her thoughts, her feelings, her apprehensions on our relationship.

I'm not really an expert on relationships, but isn't it supposed to be founded upon love, trust, and open communication? That's where I feel I'm such a failure, because for almost 15 months, she still doesn't quite trust me enough to bare her thoughts and feelings. Every time I ask her what is wrong, she just says that it is nothing when in fact there is something. She has these ideas and thoughts about me that I know nothing about, and I can't help but feel utterly useless and pathetic, because all this time she still doesn't quite believe the things I say to her.

This post is going to come out on my Facebook wall within a few hours, and I don't know if she's gonna be able to read it. I do hope she does though, so that she'll realize how hurt I am and how pathetic I feel because she still doesn't quite have it in her to trust me completely.

Tuesday, July 13

Because GLOBELINES sucks!

That's why I'm stuck in an Internet cafe trying to do some research work and other stuff. I was supposed to be inside my room comfortably surfing and getting my job done when all of a sudden my ISP decided to be such a D*CK. This is really a hassle because I can't really get a lot of work done because of the limited time I have for logging in (Internet cafe rates are a killer, trust me).

Friday, July 9

New Layout

I decided to change the layout of my blog. It's still under modifications and I'm trying to come up with a much better theme. I hope I can have the time (not to mention the energy) to spend working on it. Well, best of luck to me.